And of course Modblot has tried Salvia which is known to be pretty damn rough. Sounds like Modblot's was no exception. Ask for gentleness from your spirit teachers and from the Earth. It worked for me anyways.
And as for writings the Lao Tzu is great. Many people lose their taste for books after being in the presence, at least for a while, because it can't be written down.
Take care of yourself. Don't get too impatient because you do literally have eternity I think. Tai Chi, Yoga, and Dahnhak can all help with this in a pretty safe, time honored way.
<strong>Satya</strong> did you hear the story about Plato admonishing Diogenes for poverty? Plato and Diogenes had both had the opportunity to go to Syracuse to advise the corrupt Tyrant there for big pay. Plato became rich because he went. He came across poor Diogenes washing lettuce in the market for a penance along with women and children. Plato said:
<blockquote>Poor Diogenes, if only you had gone to Syracuse you wouldn't have to lower yourself to wash lettuce for a living!</blockquote>
Diogenes replied:
<blockquote>Poor Plato, if only you would have washed lettuce for a living, you wouldn't have had to lower yourself by going to Syracuse!"</blockquote>
Thanks Satya for filling up my reading que. Since sacraments i prefer are illegal and I am now being a good law abiding Dad I need these more Earthbond sources (and to keep practicing meditation).