On the internet I am The Machine. In reality I think that I am a consumer, at least that's what they tell me...
I subbed +THC +Greg because his content is direct, consistently published, partially available for free, open minded, thought provoking and generally provocative ect...
And yes I felt guilty for listening to all of THC's free content for over a year without contribution :0
If you want to know a little about me read further...
A recent experience in self loathing...
For a while I had this feeling of paralysis anytime donations, charity's and even subscriptions came up in my life. Yes I am selfish but that was not the source of this paralysis. It was coming from a state of mind, a mental block.
But then I experienced something so simple.
I began researching the "Wendelstein 7-X" when the topic hit the news cycle. About three clicks later I was on my way to the wiki page for the "W7-X." Upon arrival part of the information was obstructed by a plea for donations. My initial reaction was one of disgust as though I had just visited youtube without addblocker... But then I began to remember how many times I had been in the same situation on this site and how useful it was as a research tool.
This is when my state of mind dissolved much like a bad attitude and I realized I care about wikipedia and I can contribute right here, right now... In that instant my attitude shifted, I donated to Wikipedia immediately and began creating a list of non profit, and for profit services that I believe in and or utilize and began the process of becoming charitable. Trust me I have a long way to go...
Despite the best efforts of our surroundings we are individuals and have custody of our beliefs. I came to realize that because of a so called traumatic experience in my history I had come to the ridiculous conclusion that charity, contribution and donation where generally corrupt and that it was futile, and wasteful to participate.
How many other pieces of my psyche are scattered with these historical or learned emotional and mental blocks? Without thought provoking conversation driving research and participation I may have cemented my lives rendition of Ebenezer Scrooge.
Thank you to this community and to THC for facilitating this medium.
Happy Holidays,
The Machine
I subbed +THC +Greg because his content is direct, consistently published, partially available for free, open minded, thought provoking and generally provocative ect...
And yes I felt guilty for listening to all of THC's free content for over a year without contribution :0
If you want to know a little about me read further...
A recent experience in self loathing...
For a while I had this feeling of paralysis anytime donations, charity's and even subscriptions came up in my life. Yes I am selfish but that was not the source of this paralysis. It was coming from a state of mind, a mental block.
But then I experienced something so simple.
I began researching the "Wendelstein 7-X" when the topic hit the news cycle. About three clicks later I was on my way to the wiki page for the "W7-X." Upon arrival part of the information was obstructed by a plea for donations. My initial reaction was one of disgust as though I had just visited youtube without addblocker... But then I began to remember how many times I had been in the same situation on this site and how useful it was as a research tool.
This is when my state of mind dissolved much like a bad attitude and I realized I care about wikipedia and I can contribute right here, right now... In that instant my attitude shifted, I donated to Wikipedia immediately and began creating a list of non profit, and for profit services that I believe in and or utilize and began the process of becoming charitable. Trust me I have a long way to go...
Despite the best efforts of our surroundings we are individuals and have custody of our beliefs. I came to realize that because of a so called traumatic experience in my history I had come to the ridiculous conclusion that charity, contribution and donation where generally corrupt and that it was futile, and wasteful to participate.
How many other pieces of my psyche are scattered with these historical or learned emotional and mental blocks? Without thought provoking conversation driving research and participation I may have cemented my lives rendition of Ebenezer Scrooge.
Thank you to this community and to THC for facilitating this medium.
Happy Holidays,
The Machine